Eight

The highlight of my day was a 5 hour dinner with Bethany. And we got to see our favorite waiter, who mysteriously reappeared after we hadn't seen him in over a year. Dinners with Bethany are always entertaining and a great sounding board for whatever I need at the time. I try to listen to her problems and things too but she's just so good at listening to everything that I have to say that j don't shut up nearly enough. I'm working on it, though. I think I did a little better this time than previous visits. And she gave me the most perfect Christmas present in a little clutch purse. Just perfect!

Seven

I spent the day watching Ryan. I as pretty nervous as the only other time I've watched him, he threw a complete fit and made himself sick. And his parents didn't come back and get him. And here I signed myself up for 7+ hours alone with the kid! Sheesh. But it turned out a rally nice day. We played horses and trains and basketball. We watched tv shows and horse commercials. And he even settled down for a nap! 

I ended up staying at my brothers house late because it was so nice to see the family dynamic with the other kids in their natural habitat! Haha. Jordan asked me to check his math homework and Trevor and I watched some american ninja warrior. Nice little bonding moments with all the kids. And that of course, made my day. :)

My day as further made by a few snaps from a certain person who randomly decided to pop back into my life this week, after I had a dream about him. 

January 7th- no complaints. 

6

Today was another wonderfully boring day. Some more Criminal Minds. Walks with dogs- and mom today. Cuddles with my Payton. 

I also looked at scholarships and things to do over the summer! Hopefully some of my ideas will pan out and I'll get to do lots of fun things! 

5

Five is one of my favorite numbers. It's the combination of 2 and 3 and I was born on the 23rd. It's simple, one hand. I simply love it. 

This morning I awoke from a series of dreams: the first one was about the man I think in many ways is my soulmate (whether or not we will ever have an actual relationship) the second one was about a road trip going the wrong way and the third one related to school, but I could fly. I love dreams where u can fly, I feel this huge sense of freedom. And I often just soar for soarings sake. Anyway, I told Kelly about the dreams and didn't think much of them until the end of the day. (More on this later.)

My day started with some more Criminal Minds- I watched a whole season in 2 days. 

I then fought with a hose in 27 degree weather... Came in soaking wet. But the animals had water! 

I spent more time watching Criminal Minds and then I spent time outside with the dogs in our backfield- I was really just getting my 10,000 steps in! But don't tell mom, she likes that I am doing these walks. And it's a way to get out of the house a bit and keeping her off my back. 

Kelly finally texts me back about my dreams and we are teasing apart each piece of the Ibrahim dream. I tell her I almost texted him because I wanted to say hi, but that I didn't text him because that's my pattern- I say something and he responds and then I obsess for days and it's just not that healthy. The dream was perfect. And really, I didn't want to ruin it with reality. 

I told Kelly "if the universe wants this it's going to have to pull out the big guns" I said that at 8:17. Less than 20 minutes later I had received something from Ibrahim himself. I hadn't had contact with him since December 6th. 

 The universe tapped into my obsessive tendencies yet again. It's a sign right? I had a dream about him and he contacted me. There's something there. Right? Surely. The universe is meticulous. The universe, though, has a cruel sense of humor. Sometimes it's a tease. So, my dear universe, I would believe you more, if he called me. If I talked to him on the phone. I would love to talk to him on the phone. Universe, that's the next demand for me to believe. 

I want to believe, I want it to be real. 

But, for now, I will remember the dream. The dream where mom told him about my feelings and he just accepted them and we spent some time together. No promises of a future, no promises, even, of requited love. But it was beautiful.

Believe in the beautiful. Believe in what speaks to your soul and demand the world to listen to you.  

Four

My day was all about binge watching Criminal Minds. Season 5 this time, I got through 11 episodes! AND I got my 10,000 steps in! Haha-  I may have had to run some laps throughout the house! 

Dad woke up incredibly mad and was very scary- but he got over it fairly quickly- thankfully!! 

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I stayed in bed as much as I could, but then mom was cleaning the barn again and I had a stall that I wanted to finish, so bundled up I got and to the barn I went. I went to get the new cart we made and noticed it was making funny noises.,. One of the side support pieces was off. There was already a bolt missing. "Mom, did you tighten all the bolts after you put the cart together?" "Umm.....no." I was going to leave it alone until I noticed that the cart was literally coming apart at the seams. So to the toolbox I went... Tighten the bolts, I did. Only to be gently chased by a barking pig as I was finishing the job. We later saw the same pig mounting the sheep so we decided that she was in heat and I was either the the object of her affection or the competition! 

Leslie came over in the afternoon and I finished watching season 10 of criminal minds. 

2016 day 2

The morning was spent making memories with the nieces and nephews. 

Midday was all about cleaning the barn with mom and grandma. 

And the evening was spent with dad at a UK basketball game. 

A nice and balanced day. My heart is happy. 

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Spent the morning with my mom, watching and then helping her assemble her new cart. 

In the afternoon Jordan and Trevor and later Jenna and Taylor came over to spend the night. We played various board games plus sardines. I cooked various versions of dinner for the different kids and then just before bed the older 3 played truth or dare. I love watching the cousins interact and play together. 

 I got a text from my California crew, which was wonderful.